Back again

Okay. After several hours I have logged back on. I went and laid down, fully intending on going to sleep. I laid there looking at the ceiling and listening to the radio. Shortly Jonathan woke up and I listened to him playing in his crib. Now he is fed and happily playing on the floor next to me. I look at him or at Michael and I want to be here. I don't want to miss a minute of either of them. I want to go to school. I don't see how I can have both. I want both. So many men and women have both. I want both. I hope that someday I do have both.

My children make me strong. I want to be strong.