Thursday, September 09, 2010
Tuesday, September 07, 2010
Lost...
I feel kind of lost right now. I can't seem to sleep for some reason. Jonathan has been kind of a pill all day. He has a tooth coming in and is making him crazy, which in turn makes me and my husband crazy. A terrible circle. Jonathan finally passed out, and is now sleeping soundly in his bed. Jason was able to get to sleep after a little tossing and turning. He is sick now like I was for the last two weeks. He finally got it. Wondering when that would happen. Men are such babies when they are sick. Hell, I am still sick.
Anyway, after laying in bed for a little while listening to my 4 1/2 month old and my husband snore I decided to get up. I came into the living room hoping I had some kind of email from my mom. She is on the road tonight. Nope, no email yet. Went and looked around Facebook for a little while. I saw earlier that my uncle had finally made a profile. I sent him a friend request. No dice. Nothing form him either. This is pretty much the only uncle I have ever known, a man I looked to like a father growing up. And now he ignores my friend request.
Oh well. See, thing is no one in my family likes my husband. NO ONE. Well, except my Granny, but even she said he was full of shit. Everyone seemed to like him just fine until I put on my wedding dress. To which my mom said, are you sure you want to do this? And then proceeded to make me an hour late for our wedding. Our officiant was wondering what was going on to say the least. And then five months later when we found out I was pregnant with Michael, my family seemed to shut down on me.
To say the least it has been a difficult 3+ years that we have been married. The economy, lay offs, 2 boys, bed rest, tech school, mother-in-law, DCF, daycare, some health issues. None of those things have made it any easier either. I am currently looking for work. I have been since Jonathan was 6 weeks old. Now soon he will be five months old and still nothing. Jason is still looking for a part time job for after school, also no luck. No one seems to want to hire a mother of two that has not had a job in four years. Well, up until last year, I did not need to work. Jason was making $27.00 an hour and per Diem. It was wonderful. Now, not so much.
I have nine hundred kinds of experience in all sorts of things, yet no licensing and no certification. So, I guess that would mean no chance? That is what it feels like.
So, that is kind of why I am sitting typing at nearly 2 am instead of snoring next to my husband.
Anyway, after laying in bed for a little while listening to my 4 1/2 month old and my husband snore I decided to get up. I came into the living room hoping I had some kind of email from my mom. She is on the road tonight. Nope, no email yet. Went and looked around Facebook for a little while. I saw earlier that my uncle had finally made a profile. I sent him a friend request. No dice. Nothing form him either. This is pretty much the only uncle I have ever known, a man I looked to like a father growing up. And now he ignores my friend request.
Oh well. See, thing is no one in my family likes my husband. NO ONE. Well, except my Granny, but even she said he was full of shit. Everyone seemed to like him just fine until I put on my wedding dress. To which my mom said, are you sure you want to do this? And then proceeded to make me an hour late for our wedding. Our officiant was wondering what was going on to say the least. And then five months later when we found out I was pregnant with Michael, my family seemed to shut down on me.
To say the least it has been a difficult 3+ years that we have been married. The economy, lay offs, 2 boys, bed rest, tech school, mother-in-law, DCF, daycare, some health issues. None of those things have made it any easier either. I am currently looking for work. I have been since Jonathan was 6 weeks old. Now soon he will be five months old and still nothing. Jason is still looking for a part time job for after school, also no luck. No one seems to want to hire a mother of two that has not had a job in four years. Well, up until last year, I did not need to work. Jason was making $27.00 an hour and per Diem. It was wonderful. Now, not so much.
I have nine hundred kinds of experience in all sorts of things, yet no licensing and no certification. So, I guess that would mean no chance? That is what it feels like.
So, that is kind of why I am sitting typing at nearly 2 am instead of snoring next to my husband.
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